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Have you ever just had an infatuation with someone so strong that no matter what they do, it's attractive? A compulsive need for them. An attraction that makes you feel alive, happy, giddy even. Have you ever had that feeling toward someone, and been caught up in the elation that you just lose sight of yourself, and how you're acting around them? It starts out small. They don't say anything and you start doing things to get their attention, or you get irritable because they haven't given you enough attention. Then it grows into you feeling resentful when they go extended periods of time without talking to you at all, and you say things that you know you shouldn't, but you say them anyway because you crave the attention and do anything and everything to hear anything at all from them. Past this point, you begin to fall into the realization that you are nothing but an attention sponge, and you realize that that may lead to other flaws being shown. You realize how weak you are as a person, and as a lover. You start to see how pathetic you are, and it eats you from inside, and sends you spiraling into a burning hell of what you know you deserve; A complete breakdown of your personality and mental by worrying you to the point of you questioning if that's how you are with everyone, and if they are only faking being your friend, family, or even lover.

What I'm trying to get at is, don't be like me. Don't get overly attached. Don't give someone your all all the time. Don't rely on someone to always make you happy. Don't. Be. ME.
  • Listening to: Yordle's Paradise - Rawb09
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Nothing
  • Playing: League of Legends
  • Eating: Excel Spearmint
  • Drinking: Coffee
I'm just gonna go ahead and leave a short rant here.

Sooooo, some people deal with stress differently. Some people meditate. Some people drink tea. Some people work out. Some people have mental and emotional breakdowns. And some people go emotionally cold after the last one. Guess which one I am? If you said anything besides the last one, you're silly.

Stress comes in many wonderful flavors. Abandonment ripple, sadnessberry, chocolate caramel anxiety, and the list goes on from there. It's hard to work through all of this and feel like you deserve anyrhing at all. It's hard to feel like you should be happy, or that you should be smiling. Stress and depression are not fun things to deal with. Almost anything can trigger either, and especially the two can trigger themselves. "But Jon," you may be wondering; "what are you bitching about this time? Why are you being a whiny bitch?" Well I'm glad you asked! Because abandonment and anger are stressing me to the point where there is not a second in my day that I'm actually smiling. It's ways like I have to wear a mask go hide my burdens from others so they don't latch on to and leech time and energy from anyone else. I wake up, and I just look at everything that's going on in my life, like being left behind by friends that I thought would always be there, or that would stand by me no matter what. They left me behind. Friends I thought were there, they just disappeared into a puff of "I'm too busy for you" smoke. I just...Jesus Christ I'm hurting, I just want my friends to come back.

-End Rant
Have you ever just had an infatuation with someone so strong that no matter what they do, it's attractive? A compulsive need for them. An attraction that makes you feel alive, happy, giddy even. Have you ever had that feeling toward someone, and been caught up in the elation that you just lose sight of yourself, and how you're acting around them? It starts out small. They don't say anything and you start doing things to get their attention, or you get irritable because they haven't given you enough attention. Then it grows into you feeling resentful when they go extended periods of time without talking to you at all, and you say things that you know you shouldn't, but you say them anyway because you crave the attention and do anything and everything to hear anything at all from them. Past this point, you begin to fall into the realization that you are nothing but an attention sponge, and you realize that that may lead to other flaws being shown. You realize how weak you are as a person, and as a lover. You start to see how pathetic you are, and it eats you from inside, and sends you spiraling into a burning hell of what you know you deserve; A complete breakdown of your personality and mental by worrying you to the point of you questioning if that's how you are with everyone, and if they are only faking being your friend, family, or even lover.

What I'm trying to get at is, don't be like me. Don't get overly attached. Don't give someone your all all the time. Don't rely on someone to always make you happy. Don't. Be. ME.
  • Listening to: Yordle's Paradise - Rawb09
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Nothing
  • Playing: League of Legends
  • Eating: Excel Spearmint
  • Drinking: Coffee

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Jonathan James Robb
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Hey,I'm a simple Country/Rock and Roll/Metal Boy,I mostly do writing and Short Stories,maybe the occaional Book-style story,Maybe some song writing and poetry,I'm quite the Musical entusiast as well,a HUUUUUGE Gamer,Internet Freak,and most of all,an Avenged Sevenfold Junkie,Metal on,my Friends.
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*Watches Slendy dance and throws $20*
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You're very welcome :D I love your Art Style,It's detailed and well drawn~ :)
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